On-going spiritual quest

[likethebeer]

Find out why, as I approach 37, I still freak out about the concept of death; my own, specifically. And why I still deny that I'm going to die.

I'd like to figure that one out sometime. And I wonder if it all doesn't have to do with this huge, latent, narcissism I seem to possess. See: I get pissy that the world doesn't go the way I'd like it to.

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still deny

[erisreg.livejournal.com]

from whence comes religion,..
but we all must soothe the workings of the world that don't please us,..

Re: still deny

[likethebeer.livejournal.com]

mda and I had that conversation (http://www.livejournal.com/users/likethebeer/168914.html) in December (which I just spent 10 minutes looking for). Still, this denial is pretty well ingrained.

[wi-c.livejournal.com]

Hey, k? You're gonna die. But it's ok to be a little freaked about it. I'd worry on ya if you weren't. I'm kind of fond of the fact that the whole shiteree is on a timer. It makes it matter and encourages me to get to my special place when I'm not feelin' it.

[likethebeer.livejournal.com]

"get to my special place..." I'd like to, sometime. My special place, that is.

Being freaked out I'm not so worried about. It's the denial that I wonder about. oh, well.

Rebel Without a Cause

[em-porium.livejournal.com]

We're all pretty much in denial about death. If we weren't, I think that we would sit inside all day and worry about when it was going to happen. Or, we would be suicidal. ;)

A little denial is a good thing. It means that you think that you're going to live a long time and do a lot of things. Without this feeling that we're somewhat invinceable, I don't think that we could do some of the crazy things that we do. Like drive a car. Who would ever get on the highway if they weren't in denial about their own mortality??

The problems with denial about your own death only come back to bite you when you do crazy, dangerous shit like drag racing or playing chicken in your Ford Mustang towards a cliff in a 1950s teen movie. You know that one of the boyfriends is going to die, and it might be you. But you do it anyway. See?? Now that would be crazy denial. But just everyday denial about dying today or tomorrow? Not too bad. ;) :):)

Re: Rebel Without a Cause

[likethebeer.livejournal.com]

"Who would ever get on the highway if they weren't in denial about their own mortality??" True. Sometimes when I become overwhelmed by moments of knowledge of my own death, I literally just stop in my tracks (believe me, this isn't once a day or week, but it does happen a few times a year).

I need to be Buddha :)

Re: Rebel Without a Cause

[likethebeer.livejournal.com]

Buddha as in "Buddha-like about it all." Don't think I'll reach nirvana in the near future!

Re: Rebel Without a Cause

[em-porium.livejournal.com]

We all need to be a little like Buddha. :) It's good for the soul. :)

Hope that you're feeling better!