It's Halloween
Oct. 31st, 2003 06:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
likethebeerThat means--my 6th anniversary w/mda. Mr. Anderson. Monkeyboy. I think my present to him this year will be "I stacked some of the wood [that still stands in a big pile in our front yard!]"
Actually, speaking of wood, that reminds me of another topic I brought up last week--the flute. I'm listening to a tape w/"Favorite flute pieces." Had a great conversation w/mda last night about the flute. He asked me what I wanted. I said "sometimes, I just don't know anymore." I guess to play boldly, w/emotion. To get beyond the technical sometimes (and believe me, the technical & me aren't on the best of terms). Then, through talking w/him, I came upon a realization: that my timidity in playing the flute has to do w/not wanting to take something in the "wrong" direction. But then, I said to him, when I have to write something, I'll often just do it w/out the guarantee that it's right, but that it's just something. And you can often make something from something--at least you can say, "Yeah, this is what they were looking for," or "no, that's not it, go a little more in this direction." If I took at attitude towards the flute, at least I'd have something first.
Now, the reason I brought this all up when I started off writing about our anniversary, is that it's a demonstration of one of the really great things about mda. Often when I talk to him about things, I really get a clear sense of which direction I should go, and he seems to be one of the few people that I talk to who can take me to that place. Maybe that's due in part to the fact that in a lot of ways, I'm supremely comfortable and confident around him. So, yay! Anniversary! But, really, I'm just hoping for a little nooky tonight.
Actually, speaking of wood, that reminds me of another topic I brought up last week--the flute. I'm listening to a tape w/"Favorite flute pieces." Had a great conversation w/mda last night about the flute. He asked me what I wanted. I said "sometimes, I just don't know anymore." I guess to play boldly, w/emotion. To get beyond the technical sometimes (and believe me, the technical & me aren't on the best of terms). Then, through talking w/him, I came upon a realization: that my timidity in playing the flute has to do w/not wanting to take something in the "wrong" direction. But then, I said to him, when I have to write something, I'll often just do it w/out the guarantee that it's right, but that it's just something. And you can often make something from something--at least you can say, "Yeah, this is what they were looking for," or "no, that's not it, go a little more in this direction." If I took at attitude towards the flute, at least I'd have something first.
Now, the reason I brought this all up when I started off writing about our anniversary, is that it's a demonstration of one of the really great things about mda. Often when I talk to him about things, I really get a clear sense of which direction I should go, and he seems to be one of the few people that I talk to who can take me to that place. Maybe that's due in part to the fact that in a lot of ways, I'm supremely comfortable and confident around him. So, yay! Anniversary! But, really, I'm just hoping for a little nooky tonight.
